SWALLOWING TRUTH

TODAY'S QUOTE:
The truth does not change according to our ability to stomach it... Flannery O'Connor

Human nature is a roller coaster ride that we often have to claw our way off of to make any sense of our truth. The urge to ride endlessly, screaming excuses for actions that we'd rather not face up to won't make them disappear. The fact is the longer we ride the harder it is to learn what we must and move on. We may hunger for other people to understand, but nobody ever does until we stop explaining and accept our flaws. Nothing can change for the better until we face and correct our own missteps. If we want others to see us as the person we've evolved into then we first have to clean up all of our left over messes.

We may know the why... we may see where we went terribly wrong... we may realize that our intentions were never to wound others, but until we show real remorse then nobody else will give a rats ass about any of the mitigating factors we care so much about. An excuse, (even a valid one) is not an alibi. All of your, "why I" information has a place and time to be examined. Tell it too soon and you'll be doomed to retell it over and over. And the more it's said the less valid it seems.

"The season for reasons", comes after all cards are face up on the table... nothing up anyone's sleeve... everyone voluntarily accepting their fair share of both the credit and the blame. If everyone isn't willing or able to shoulder what truly belongs to them then do your part without demanding they comply and save your why's for your own understanding. You have no real power over anyone else. There aren't enough words or ways to say them to force a change of anyone else's mind or heart. And that's okay!

If you're not sitting solitary once the table time truth or dare session ends then the why's can visit for a bit. But don't ever expect anyone else to care as much as you do. The how come you acted badly may have been caused by a spark somebody else ignited. But in the end you had a choice between feeding the fire or putting it out. Your truth rests soul deep and is better used for self-study than it is for a bargaining tool to gain forgiveness or understanding from others.

Become as strong as possible... as independent as possible... as self-aware as possible then you won't be tempted to use all the countless whys as the crutch you lean upon. When we reach past the age of reason then it's up to us to stop whining about our bad luck or shitty beginning and find our true potential and live up to it. Think about it... let it ride... then decide!!!